My Rabbi, My Teacher.

To my dearest Rabbi,

It is with tears in my eyes that I write to you. The healing process is taking some time for me to be able to express how I feel. As many of us, all I can feel is a broken heart and an empty soul, that is it, nothing else. Now the questions have started to rise and I ask myself Why?. I have heard in the past that it is ok to be angry with Hashem, but I am not. How could I? If there's is something that makes sense, is that such a great Neshama like yours didn't belong "down" here with us. Such a Holy man like you, your presence was required "up" there. Who knows, maybe Hashem needed your advise. That, I can understand. I just wish you would have been more stubborn, put your foot down and said "I'm sorry Hashem, I can't right now". But how could you? You were such a great Rabbi, such a great Tzadik, you always went where you were needed, whenever you were called, you never said no, even if you had to take a bus or walk in the pouring rain.

You did what you had to do. For what I understand, you went to Shul, you Daven, you put Tefillin on and then you left for your call. That was you, a true devoted Rabbi who taught by example.

Now we are left here, "down" here, with broken hearts and empty souls. But we must go on.

All I can ask for now is for a speedy coming of Moshiach so you can be reunited with your family and for Hashem to give our community and especially your family the strength to continue on this path called life.

Love,

Chana(Sandra) Arazi.